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A Dream

I had a dream that felt more real than waking life. The protagonist was a man of action whom many relied on. He ran around the town facing friends and foes alike. Their lives were worlds apart, each dripping of texture, colors, and meaning. There were actors, artists, merchants, teachers, cooks, and entrepreneurs. There were also criminals, terrorists, and people just trying to survive while deperately protecting their own way of life.  Even as I experienced these things, I felt compelled to note them down so I wouldn't forget. It was a special feeling, the kind whose memory beckons a lifelong pursuit, which forever leaves you feeling incomplete without carrying it in your heart. Yet, once I fully awoken, it just slipped through my fingers, like a melting, sparkling, colorful, and mysterious goo. Never to take shape again, leaving behind a stubborn surface layer that refuses to wash away as a reminder of its glory. How much longer can I bear to distract myself from this feeling? Th...

Setting The Stage

This is the story of how I achieved my highest potential. It starts at the only place that has ever existed: here and now. It's a strange place to start a journey because, in a vaccum, it's hard to know where you're going.  I might prefer to focus on fragments of moments gone, that lie within. I might remember better times, where I felt lighter and more at ease. Presently, I'm at the worst point in my life. Where once I earned a living and felt independent, today I leech off my parents.  The man who ran circles around a gym and fought combat sports, now stuggles to bend over without passing out. The boy who believed he could do anything, now puts off the smallest tasks for days on end. A child brimming with love for his heroes. Where did it all go wrong? I'm not leaving on a perilous journey without reason.  I do so as a last resort. My life feels unbearable after everything that has happened. Something needs to change. What do I carry with me now? So full, yet so h...